Koyasha - The Former Lone Wolf

Subject: Koyasha - The Former Lone Wolf Thu Aug 02, 2012 3:04 am

Lets kick this off with a blast shall we.?

Kick starting this with a few things you may not know about me.

I'm sarcastic, an asshole at times. VERY direct. Will not sugar coat anything. (aka blunt) Perverted. At times. and when it's funny. Immature and mature. I like a lot of things, and I have a bad case ADHD so I get distracted easy. But don't judge. That's why we all have a good time when I'm around. And I like to help people, that's my nature though. If your on my good side, you'll know it by the way I act towards you. I'll tell you if I don't like you. in blunt terms. Ask Nong/NongShim/Dave. I told him to his face that I didn't like him due to a comment he made. I'm generally likable, until you piss me off. Then I'm generally hated. And I have knack for NOT caring about your life as well. Gotta problem with it.? Kill yo dam self.

Now some of you may notice that that I am an old ass member and I refer to myself as the shadow of the guild. I'm here to clarify that reason. Starting from the beginning. All the way to the end. Telling you about every detail up to this day.

The beginning

Dating back when I first searching for guilds after recently joined one that died I began to wonder "Will I ever find a fucking good guild.?" which at the time was a No. So I got bored one day and hunted around and was putting in guild app's like it was my job too. I got so fed up I decided to whisper the guild leaders. Surprisingly! You fuckers guessed it! Trinity happened to be online. And being that lovable weirdo she is she had me "serve tea' to Tina. Of course hearing this strange request I laughed and my RLBF friend Shawn (Known in-game as Shiroamu) looked at me with a puzzled look. I had to explain to him that to get into this guild I had to serve tea to another person. We laughed. I did. And I got in. Now my life as a ScarletKnight began...

The middle

Time has passed and I slowly crawled up the ranks of SK being promoted to Veteran. It was strange. I never talked to the guild head and I wanted to kill Tina every time she type anything. You may NEVER be able to tell this but Tina and I butted heads for the LONGEST of time. I had no idea why she hated me so much but I'm not about to sit around get bitched at. So I retaliated. She didn't like that at all. So we clashed heads I think for about a month. But then something happened. I realized that I was going about it the wrong way, fighting anger with anger won't win me anything. So we came to a truce. Not necessarily a truce rather then me giving up and taking whatever she can dish out. I had to get around her harsh words to actually be called a friend. So now I had made my first friend in the guild. And it remained that way for the longest of time. And as time passed our friendship grew and grew. To basically a relationship (Not like that but I'm pretty sure you understand). But some of you who care to read this may ask yourself. "What about Trinity?" Hell if I fucking know she didn't give a half a damn about me but that's for another time.

More time passed. (still the middle)

Being promoted to Admin was a mission accomplished. Making friends along the way and having an overall blast in the game. I laughed at Tina cutting into people. Shocked to find out that Blake and Jim (Neiman. I call him Jim for some odd reason) are brothers. Cody was just random and Jake being....Well Jake and not to forget Dain Who I raged on alot and give him his hated nickname of Dain the Stain. Aedan who I added on XBL and I believe played Halo against, and I can't forget Nighton. That is a funny bastard. I actually had fun in the guild I loved how helpful we all are and how we're are more of a family then a guild. But not everything was fun, I felt shunned by Trinity (I tried to talk to her and failed everytime) and I had recently became homeless. But did anyone know.? No. Why? No one cared about me and that began the start of me taking my leave of SK stripping me of my admin title and every thing. I had to solve my life before I can go back to being a Sk again. I struggled, slept outside, rarely ate, just mainly tried to survive as I was on my own. No one cared about me. Neither did I care for them. As I was out and about on my own I decided "I should just leave SK, barely anyone knows me." (sigh) "Well. It's been fun." that's when I decided to once and for all, plot my leave.

Leading Into the Present

Days passed. No one knew me. "I done everything I can. Fuck it. I'll find another guild and actually make a damn impression." that thought spread faster then a wild fire. I always told my self I was going to leave but I never did. I couldn't do it. I guess leaving unannounced wasn't the right thing to do. Plus I couldn't abandon my wingwoman. Who be her sarcastic partner in crime.? But I was just kidding myself. Like she cared. We we're friends that's all (That's what I thought. I was wrong.). I just let time pass and left it alone. But, something changed, I just went with my thoughts and decided. "I believe I can slip out unannounced. Nah. I'm going out in style.!" So that faithful day where I decided to leave. Which I forwarned Trinity about. I did. I dropped everything. And oddly. Left like it was nothing. Which was a pain because people actually payed attention to me xD Dam you Cody/Nighton/Moto/Omni. You bastards. I don't know what happened from the guild point of view. But from mines. I felt relieved. Maybe now I'll be appreciated for fucks sake.? Is it really that hard to talk to me once and a while.? Apparently for this guild it was. But obviously, that wasn't the case. I ran from Trinity (literally she found me in Hamel speaking to a friend. Shiroamu) and begged me to come back which I wasn't believing. Now this is where things changed. The person who I never talk to, is begging for me to come back.? Give me a break, I ain't believing shit until I got proof. And proof was given and here's how the convo went. "KOYA." WHAT.?" "GET. YOUR. ASS. BACK IN." "NO." "Koyasha please come back. "Rin. No." "I miss you!" "No ya don't." "I love you." "LOL No the hell you don't." "FINE." "Bye now." KOYA WAIT!" "Yes.?" "I like you." "No you don't." "YOU NEVER KNOW." "YES I DO, NOW BYE TRINITY." "NO!" "Wait what.?" I began to cave right here. "Errol, I thought you were loyal.? Why would you leave us after so long.?" "Oh....Crap..." (I felt myself losing. Women have that affect on me. In other words. I began feeling guilt.) "Now you know we care." "PSHHH YEA RIGHT. How can you care when we never talked.? Up until now.?" (Point Errol) "That don't matter!" "It does hun, I don't even know how I made Admin.!" "IT'S BECAUSE I ACTUALLY LIKE YOU." "How can you like someone you don't know.???" (Ha I'm making a comeback!) "Errol. Please just stay with us. I'm sorry ok.? (FUCK I LOST. MOTHER OF FUCK.) "...." (FUCK ALL OF MY LIFE. ) "Fine, I can't beat that." "Thank you ;>" (Game Trinity) During this time I got whispers from...Cody/Dayton. Stating "Dude are you really leaving.?" I normally don't care but these guys are my brothers in arms. and I told thm "Yes." I failed of course. And a day passed, logged on in the morning and caught Cody alone with Tina being afk. From what Cody filled me in on was Trinity actually caring. I laughed SO HARD at this fact because one thing remained that I knew for a fact. WE NEVER. I REPEAT. NEVER TALKED ABOUT ANYTHING. Why the fuck would she care.? So I asked him "What all happened.?" he went on to say "Well she told everyone to spam invites until you came back." I replied "Another question here. What did everyone think.?" he stated "Well Moto and Omni were basically in shock. They couldn't believe you left and everyone began to miss you the MOMENT you left." Now hearing this. Made me so FUCKING confused. (REALLY.? NOW I'M NOTICED.?! FUCK THIS SHIT.) I thought that. He went on "But I think Rin took it little personal, dude she got mad and stated 'We talked about this already!'" I cut him off "We did, I told her I was leaving, if I say I'm a do something. I will do it." we talked a little more but this is what shocked me the most "Honestly. I couldn't believe you left." I replied. "Bro I had too. No one even bothers to speak to me. I bet you Ai didn't even miss me. Then again. Does she miss anyone.? LOL" we had a laugh and a big shock happened she stated "I did." (WAIT A FUCKING A SECOND. AM I HIGH?) Once again another thought. "Lol Ai. Why would you miss me.?" She stated. "Well for one if you left we'd have to replace you with some noob that would just piss me off. Plus I'd miss your sarcasm." Now the most borderline insane person just in a nutshell said she'd miss me. I am now in a state of shockery. But at the same time I also felt happy. That I wasn't just a mere shadow anymore. One fact remained. I joined a ~~guild~~ family. I could never leave.

About me extended

After everything that happened, You would understand why I call myself the shadow of the guild and have the title "Lone Wolf." That's all I know. No one is around to help me. If I don't solve it it'll never be finished. I don't generally count on people for anything and I don't like aired-out promises (aka broken promises) so if I say "I'm counting on you bro" THAT'S A DAMN GOOD SIGN. THAT MEANS. WAIT FOR IT. HOLY SHIT. I ACTUALLY LIKE YOU AS A HUMAN BEING AND NOT AS SOMEONE WHO GO JUMP OFF A BRIDGE AND DROWN. Shocking ain't it.? And I got a soft side that makes me cave as well. Like the moment when me and Nighton decided to troll Trinity. No one ever asked us how we felt. We freaked out and spazzed of course. And I initially end up telling Nighton to return as I was going to leave. Tina had whispered me (Shocking ain't it) and since she knew me. Made me cave. HARD. If it's one thing that a girl always can beat me with. Tears. When Tina and Trinity told me that. Oh yea, I felt bad, only cause I cared. (Big mistake. But shit, I never win when it comes to emotions.) And one thing that I never could understand was I was forgiven. And that's it. "It was a joke, no harm done." (THE FUCK YOU MEAN NO HARM DONE. WE MADE YOUR ASS CRY.! THAT IS HARM.) This is where the whole entire "Loyal" part kicks in. Since I had a hand in I took my fair share of the blame. But Nighton insisted I step down and he be accused of it all since it was his plan. (From that moment forward I see Nighton as someone who I know will come through for me in a pinch) All I did was leave it alone. ain't no point of fighting an unwinnable battle. SO we did. I judge myself harshly when it comes to my action that may end up hurting someone badly. Everything has a limit. I may be harsh and don't what I say to you. But I care, you'll know it. Cause I actually give a damn and a fuck. And that'll wrap my history and about me.
(As you can see. I'm a literal person)

Koyasha. The Loyal Wolf.

Subject: Re: Koyasha - The Former Lone Wolf Thu Aug 02, 2012 3:25 am

Best introduction so far ;>

Subject: Re: Koyasha - The Former Lone Wolf Thu Aug 02, 2012 3:30 pm

Koya you type to much D;!

Subject: Re: Koyasha - The Former Lone Wolf Thu Aug 02, 2012 5:10 pm

I'm a literal person. It happens when I type.

Subject: Re: Koyasha - The Former Lone Wolf Thu Aug 02, 2012 9:09 pm

I cant be literal

Subject: Re: Koyasha - The Former Lone Wolf Thu Aug 09, 2012 10:23 pm

Koyasha! I talked to you!